A Failure!!!

No matter how much it hurts, I have to face the truth: I belong no longer in Dean's Lister.

That is the saddest part, accepting the truth. But we have to accept it and learn our mistakes.

I can't go on anymore.

A College!

I am now a college! I maybe late in logging on and posting my life as a college, but well..it is always better to be late than never. Hahaha. Thinking of it deeply, I just can't believe that I am already a college.

I have my new galsses, and I have told you that already. I am so open to all new things, that post graduation, my family and I went to my new school to survey it to see what it really looks like,. It is not just a simple plain school, it is a campus. It has its own stores, inside dorms, digital librearies..its just..fantastic, because it is more modern than the school I went to in high school. So, I am going in that State-University now, and I am inside in the prospect. Hahahaha.

I gotta go now, because I have to search for the school's schedule, and watch American Idol in the computer. Ba-bye!

P.S. My Mom has just gone away again now..from here to abroad. Gosh.. I just hope that she would always be fine, just like Father and my sisters and the others. Well, goodbye now, really.

Eyeglasses

Now, I am wearing eyeglasses. You know why? Because I have been complaining aout my eye since then. I didn't know though that it was that serious. Gosh....If only I have known, then wuld have rushed to the nearest optical clinic immediately. But then, I didn't know anything about it until now. So... Thats it.

I wore glasses now, as if care that much about lookd.s. I dont. But I am a bit uncomfortale at first in terms of doing the cmputer, texting and etchetera. Duh...

Okay. Enough of that. I will be talking aout second matter now. My yearbook.

Gosh! Mther gave me money to pay for the yearbook and full, but then, I spent the money unknowingly, and now was problematic of how to solve my problem. Gosh.. WHat shall I do? a so problemtaic now...

And am wishing right this moment and for the past few days since have since Julius that he will ask me out. Just like a friendly date, anyway. Would that be great? I hope so... I m not givng up yet..

And lastly our graduation. Its gonna be tomorrow, and its like..weird. Everytime I think of it, was having gosebumps. It was like, i want to graduate but I dn't want to. Oh, whatever. Well, que sera sera. Whatever will be, will be.

A Long Time Ago...

Precisely. It is not in a figurative form, but literal form. It was a long long long time ago. Uhmn..Have I told you that once upon a time my family was rich and influentiaL? Yap. And I have this..Uhmn.. Childhood crush. It seems like he was my first? or second? crush. Duh..Whatever. Thing is, I was nuts over him then. But I have the rights so, because he is so handsome then, that time. Really, yah, I am not joking.

So thats it. Father wants me to meet them again. Uh no.. Particularly, Uncle Romeo, my father's close friend. But..we haven't seen each other for almost a decade. Yeah, right. So thats it. I have been dreading when Uncle Romeo said that we will meet at his house, therefore his family is there..

But what truly I am dreading is the part of his son. He is named Julius. He is my crush, childhood crush and I haven't seen them ever since th tradegy in our family happened.

Okay. SO thats it. I was dreading if he was just like..you know, in the past. Because we were friends, good friends. And I was saying to myself, what if he changed? Like, is he a drug user now? Haha. Yah..really insane/. Or I was going on like...Has he turned so bad now..? Duh. WHatever. But yes, I am so expecting for the worst.

But what I saw was very different. He is still soft-spoken, but he is not that handsome now. Well..so? Its just becaus eof his pimples. DUh.. I mean, he is still handsome, blotched only by pimples. ANd gosh! He still remembered me. I cannot imagine it., I mean, it was like, we were good friends but not that really close so what happened? He really knows me that much, and I an so overwhelmed. GOsh/..

WEll, all in all it was nice and Julius was still ever ever nice. Bye!

Near Near Near

Last night, I had my tantrums. Itrs because they all went to the city while I am stuck in school, practicing for our graduation. Oh, anyway, when I said "They", I meant my mother and my sisterd. Hmp!So thats it. I was so stucked in this boring place while all of them were having fun.

And I also have this one problem right now: I don't know how to edit our family picture. You know, for our yearbook. Aaaaaarghhh!! WHatever! I hate it./ Maybe once again, I have to go to a studio. Duh...Whatever. Hmph! Unlucky.

Okay. And what pissed me off yesterday was the fact that I told Mother to buy me a book but no one bought me something. Goodness!

Duh>>>>>>>>

Hello!!!

I am so very sorry that for the past few days (especially the last post I made) I made my blog so..neglected. No, I don't want it to be, okay? So..Here I am, sincerely taking things seriously for my only one best friend in the world- my blog.

Okay, so? What is happening to me now? Well, I just realized that I was not born with luck (OH!), but I was born with God's guidance and blessings. Yeah, you heard it right. Luck is just an assisting..assistant? Hahaha. Well, yeah, anyway, it is true.I realized that this morning. Anyway, I have so lots to tell I do not know if I will be able to make it from the very start to the very end in a very neat way.

Okay. First, my Mother came back home now for graduation. You see, the last time she was here in France, we have had a fight. Yes, the last day she ought to be staying here. So..uhmn.,..I want to make amends. So, naturally, I acted as the good daughter. Of course, it was never really easy, seeing as I was at ease on being just with myself, no one to scold me and notice things that I do. In short, I was once free. But uh-oh, never mind. I tried hard enough. So right now..there were no any..uhmn..break-outs. Thats lucky.

So..I also saw the movie..uhmn..Freaky Friday. I realy love it. Love that movie. And you know what? I want that thing to happen to me too so that my Mum will be able to understand me better on why we are so..different.

Okay. Now, also our graduation. It is nearing and i have turned to become afraid pf the future. You know what? I have also doubts on attending this school, so faraway from home, but I want it too at the same time. Well, duh.. WHy won't I just give it a try anyway? Right?

Mwah!

And She Is Back!

My mother is home! Mymother is home. And I cannot believe it.Its because I missed her so much.

And my sisters also graduated in elementary level. I am so happy for them. The youngest is valedictorian and the other one is with merits. I am so happy, happy happy. During the speech, my sister cried, and mother was not there yet because her flight has been delayed. Poor baby... Hehehehe

So, my Mere was thereby afternoon because my sisters' graduation was morning.

And the best part: I got mynew cellphone. A Nokia N72. Yehey!! JEjejejeje